Love is your Energy!
Love is your energy!
I have this little oracle card within my therapy room, and with it comes a story of growth and of course, tranformation. Below is just a facet of my story and how this card came to mean so much to me. Two significant things happened the day I procured it, which I’m going to talk about now.
When I first happened apon this card, I remember looking at it with complete dissatisfaction and frustration and feeling as if it was nothing at all! I remember tossing it aside with no regard whatsoever. I was so cross with myself for pulling something so generic and vague when I needed and wanted answers to just so many things!
It was over 5 years ago now and my spiritual nudges had been building gradually. Having ignored much of my calling for many years, I remember feeling almost plagued with a need-not a desire, I’ll emphasise as I felt very stressed at the time-to go along to this open circle I had seen advertised on social media.
This one evening in Summer, I sat within a large group of strangers, feeling extremely awkward and unsure of why I was even there as well as a little nervous for what would be expected of me.
During the session we were assigned small groups and asked to do mini readings within them. This challenged me of course, but I was able to complete the task. What stuck out to me that evening and later on reflection however, was a reading I received that evening from an older lady. She stood up and with arms held outstretched, she gesticulated a force pushing me from behind into my back and head area. She declared only the words; “I see you being shoved into this!” Little did I realise this was more literal in its meaning than I realised at the time!
Before the session ended that evening we each pulled a card as is customary in many circles of development. I had been feeling listless, deflated and generally dissatified with life in a way I couldn’t fathom or even begfin to label for myself.
Of course when I pulled the aforementioned card I was met with more of the same emotion! This card meant nothing to me and I just couldn’t relate to it at all!
Oddly, I thought in my dismissive manner, I had put the card on the chair beside me. I then said my farewells and thanks and left the group, feeling unsure of whether I’d return.
Two days later, the lady’s reading came to fruition and I was rear-ended in the car on my way to my sister-in-laws yoga class. We were just waiting at traffic lights when I was quite literally ‘shoved’ from behind whilst stationary!
My third whiplash injury, this impacted my head and brain badly and so began over 3 years of oppressive concussive symptoms. I was extremely poorly for at least 18 months and could only cope with wearing sun glasses in dark rooms. My eyes refused t0 coordinate or focus and I lost a lot of my hearing. It made simple things like eye contact unbearable and phone use was out of the question, let alone basic things like reading! I felt my eyes and ears were being taken from me and fell into a degree of depressive isolation.
During this time, I had realised that I had somehow managed to bring home the card from the development circle all those months ago-I still to this day don’t understand how!! I reached out twice to the medium who ran the group when I realised this. The first time apologising emphatically that I had accidentally brought it home with me and did she want me to send it. She said, quite plainly that no, this wasn’t necessary. When I asked her many, many months later again, I was met with the same answer-that she didn’t need it and not to worry! This amazed me-that she didn’t even want me to send it to her! This woman now had an incomplete oracle set, but clearly believed the card needed to stay with me. Wow I thought.
So this card sat on my book shelves, for years, gathering a little dust and gradually infiltrating into my being.
Many,many months passed again. I was having to adapt to lost hearing and more problematic sight and I began to believe that the spiritual component of this lesson was meant to teach me to ‘better see and hear’ in a way my physical senses couldn’t understand. This felt tranformative in the way I felt about my predicament, as well it’s purpose, even if I still resisted the meaning behind it.
This new awareness though made me realise that I really was being ‘shunted’ to make changes in my life! So one day, feeling poorly and extremely sorry for myself whilst lying in bed, I said one of the most heartfelt prayers of my life, from the depths of my soul into that darkened room. I promised that if ‘they’ made me better, and healed me, I’d work for God. I’d work for the light and I’d become the psychic medium, teacher and healer I knew I was. And I swore this into the ether that day. I vowed to myself and the universe as I lay there alone. And I meant it! Through my suffering came surrender.
And of course, in time I healed for the most part.
I remembered my vow, and so years later whilst still sitting sunglasses, I gave my reiki master an impromptu reading. The information came out of nowhere and I knew this was my nudge from the beyond. It was time!
As you know from other blogs, my new business began to evolve from there, as I fully stepped into new role and followed the spiritual tug I’d been given for so, so long. I was offering people as much compassion, love and tenderness as I could day to day through all the different modalities I was offering. I had so much love in my heart and it was meant for so much more than husbands and children! The meaning within that original card that had lain seemingly dormant on my bookshelves, had actually seeped into my conscious awareness, and began to mean more and more to me. That card reminded me who I’d always been and what I’d always had to offer other people and I understood it’s value more and more with every passing month. It began originally within me as a gentle whisper, that people were seeing something within me, and the more people I worked with the more mindful and aware I became, the more connected I became and the more at peace I became. The more that oracle card began to make sense and stand out to me. And when I began to work with people on a 121 level, I really began to know in my heart the truth of what I was and had been doing. The card, I had previously disregarded all those years ago now made complete sense to me! I was working on the love vibration with clients! That is what people saw in me or connected with when they met me, and that was what I saw in people and connected with in them! This of course was happening on a soul-based level, so was not even conscious for many people and would have just come through as a feeling for some, while they thought “She was nice, I’ll go back and see her again. ” But still the soul based connection was there, and and now with a therapy room to support me, this energy has blossomed futher still for my little room reflects it too!
Now, people say to me , “I just knew I needed to see you!” or “I felt very drawn to you!” and with the validations from spirit or the coaching or the reiki healing, I know they’re getting something else at the same time. When soul recognises another soul and is reminded of it’s ‘being’, magic happens. And of course this happens through the energy vibration of love and the gift of prescence. Maybe it sounds cliche or naff, but it’s the truth so I don’t care! This card now means more to me than any of my other oracle cards, crystals and gems put together! It’s significance to me is profound where once it was meaningless. I don’t even know the true ‘book’ meaning of the card itself but I know it’s significance to me now, is very, very real, apt and cherished! It’s perhaps time for a frame, and a valued place on my therapy wall!
Love is the energy of my work. Love is my energy. It is also yours, and I wish wholeheartedly, to continue to show and prove that to you. Much love, as always. Min.x
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